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I remember feeling like I was actually worth something.

I remember feeling that urge of happiness on a cold morning.

but the thing is, I hardly know where I stand.

I don't understand my heartbeats anymore. or the pulses of emotions running through my body.

all I know is my heart beats drastically.

not only because I feel lost, but because I stand at the edge of feeling the need to know myself.

I miss feeling like i understood who I was, or where I was going.

I remember being able to wake up to the fresh wind of life, that lead me to unexplainable thoughts.

and I'd go anywhere it took me

but now I'm just as frosen as the passion burning through my veins.

I remember feeling that happy that woke me up from dreaming

but now, I can't wait till I dream.

I can't wait to see where my mind leads me to,

I somehow hope it takes me far from these crowded falling walls.

I'm tired of feeling like I'm trapped underneath this fake skin I created.

I somehow wish someone had the urge to breathe new life into me.

I'm just as shattered as I thought.